then write down what you love about them.

THIS IS AN ASSIGNMENT GIVEN TO ME BY MY PSYCHOLOGIST.

1. MOTHER: SHE’S ALWAYS THERE FOR ME. SHE ALWAYS TRIES HER VERY BEST TO HELP ME, EVEN WHEN SHE DOESNT UNDERSTAND WHATS GOING ON WITH ME. HER LOVE IS UNCONDITIONAL. SHE GIVES THE BEST HUGS. WHEN I THINK ABOUT KILLING MYSELF, A MEMORY OF HER AUTOMATICALLY COMES TO MIND.
2. FATHER: HE IS THE HARDEST WORKING MAN I’VE EVER MET. HE CARRIES THE WHOLE FAMILY ON HIS SHOULDERS AND NEVER COMPLAINS ABOUT IT. WHEN I’VE BEEN IN VERY BAD STATES, HE TRIES TO CONSOUL ME HOWEVER HE CAN, IF HE NOTICES THAT ISN’T WORKING HE PERSISTS. WHEN IT’S HAPPENING IT’S ANNOYING BUT IN RETROSPECT I SEE A LOVING FATHER DESPERATE TO HELP HIS SON. HE’S A MAN OF PRINCIPLES HE HOLDS TO HIS PRINCIPLES EVEN IF IT COMES AT A PERSONAL COST TO HIM. HE BELIVES FAMILY COMES FIRST. WHEN HE DIDN’T HAVE THE MONEY TO HELP MY COUSINS, HE TOOK OUT A LOAN AS SOON AS HE COULD. WHEN I GOT MYSELF INTO 3K+ DEBT, NO SPEECH, NO VISUAL CHANGE IN BEHAVIOR, NO INNER DEBATE. HE GAVE ME THE 3K. THEN AGAIN WHEN I GOT MYSELF INTO DEBT, HE AGAIN HELPED. I OWE THAT MAN EVERYTHING. I LOVE HIM SO MUCH.
3. SISTER: WHEN EVER I’VE NEEDED A HUG, SHE’S ALWAYS PROVIDED ONE. ADVICE? NO PROBLEM. THANKS TO HER I’VE GOTTEN TO SEE MORE OF FLORIDA. SO MANY MEMORIES. IT HURTS. I WANT TO DO RIGHT BY YOU AND COMPLETE THIS LIST BUT GOD IT HURTS TO WRITE AND THINK.
4. JOSH: TO CALL HIM A FRIEND WOULD BE A DISSERVICE TO SUCH AN AMAZING INDIVIDUAL. I LOVE HIM LIKE A BROTHER. HE HAS SEEN SIDES OF MY CONDITION THAT SCARE ME, BUT HE DOES NOT GROW DISTANT. WHENEVER HE FELT THERE WAS SOMETHING HE COULD DO TO HELP, THERE HE WAS. THERE WAS A TIME I IGNORED HIM FOR A YEAR. ONE DAY OUT OF THE BLUE THERE HE WAS AT MY HOUSE, AND OFFERED HIS SUPPORT.
5. ME: I’M NOT ALWAYS GOOD TO MYSELF, BUT I AM GRATEFUL THAT I HAVE NOT GIVEN UP. I’M PROUD OF MY WILLPOWER THOUGH IT HAS DWINDLED. I HOPE THIS WAS SUFFICIENT.